Title: It’s Not Very Psychopathic

Form: Poetry

Author: Luke Meyer

Artist: Luke Meyer

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It’s not very psychopathic to believe you can program your mind. It’s not grandiose or even retarded. To change oneself is an adaptive measure to conditions of social descension. If faced with social descension, your option is to either become what you fear, or to become what you wish. To accept that you suck, or to prove that you’re better.

Social descension is a perceptual phenomenon. But experiences that can hurt you in life, like felony convictions for example, can make social descension seem very objective and real. Some people call it impostor syndrome, but in truth it’s some sort of variant. You don’t feel as the imposter; you feel as though they mistake you for one. And that’s a whole mess when that happens.

If you interpret your social dissension to mean that you are bad, you will lack apathy, and you will change through that acceptance. Your empathy with your social peers will be strong, however its bond will be strongest with those who have disbelieved in you the most, because you have chosen to hate yourself, at least a little bit, or as much as you imagine you have fallen. And no one will be impressed by your ratification as a self hating loser. Little else can be less inspiring to people who actually care about you. People generally will work with you and give you what you want as long as you return the favor. This truism can get one pretty far. Far enough at least to feel alright. So maybe go easy on oneself. You’re still a self hating person with this option but only if you actually had a better way out of it. If you suck at what you thought you were, and you believe it, I guess one has no option but to take it to the house.

Apathy is indeed an adaptive measure to dissatisfaction with social descension. If your social dissension dissatisfies you, you could believe both that it’s deserved, and that you are too good for its distinction even so. If you believe you will rebound to your prior status, you must be crazy (if you actually have descended socially, (because you must know it does not work like that.)) But if you believe you will come to like yourself more in the future than you have ever liked yourself before, socially speaking, you must program your mind to change yourself, and you will win should that succeed.